Is there method to this madness or is it just ... well... madness?

I have spent years working towards improving my abilities to create video content.  It seems like it's been ages, and at times it seems like I have made little to no progress. Am I treading water as others swim?  I still work the crazy TV hours, and I still am not getting paid for most of what I do on the side. It's hard to keep self doubt at bay.  It's also a challenge to work a side hustle while working a full time job and having a life.  Finding that balance is not easy.  Spending 8 hours at work making TV, then finding the motivation to shoot and edit after is a bit much at times.  Some times you just have to sleep.  Ha.

I watched a video this morning that made me feel slightly better about everything.  it's from a travel photographer named Taylor Jackson.  It's nice to know that I am not alone in my self doubt, and that others who have already turned their side gig into their main gig still occasionally feel this struggle as well.  Ironically this is from a v-log.  I usually don't like them.  For one, Dr Neil Robison taught me that you should never make yourself the story.  It seems like that is all there is anymore, creators who make themselves the story.... I guess it goes with territory.  To me it always comes off as shallow and conceited.  I really don't care about you when I watch a travel video.. I want to see the place and people not the host.  I hate putting myself in my videos, and only do so when there is no other choice.  Is film making a lost art?  Is it all me me me?  I guess that is a question better addressed in another blog post.

Taylor's video was refreshing... I can appreciate his self doubt, I share it.  I hope he doesn't mind that I post his work here.